thewovenweb said: has it been real? also so sorry to hear that. are you ok?
It’s been marching band camp all week; it’s not necessarily struggling in a really terrible way, but I’m definitely incredibly exhausted. I just made so, so much dumb mistakes in the past few hours. Fortunately, now I am back home, have taken a nice relaxing shower, and am about to cuddle with my cat until I fall asleep and push through the last day of band tomorrow.
a lot of the time at work when parents want to get their kids to behave or hurry up or something they’ll say stuff like, “don’t do that or the man will get mad,” referring to me. like they’re not getting annoyed, i am. and then the kid always looks at me with this hurt look like, “jesus christ, are you really going to get mad? i don’t even know you.” and i look at them and kind of shrug like, “i…don’t know what emotions i’m allowed to show right now. i guess i represent your mom’s anger.”
I can’t even begin to articulate how much struggle there has been in my life tonight.
Man, it’s really funny how society is generally cool with drinking incredibly dangerous and harmful amounts of alcohol and eating like shit but thinks consensual sex is “disrespecting your body”.
Wait no, it’s not funny. It’s that other thing. What’s it called. Depressing.